“It gets better”
Sounds like a cliché right? I used to think it was, but it really does get better.
All those times you don’t think you can get out of bed, all the times you wonder if it’s really worth grinding through another day… you will come out the other side.
I thought I’d be fighting against my own head for the rest of my life, but if you can keep your head above water and push through those times when it seems hopeless, you’ll make it. I promise.
I’m happy again, and I didn’t think I’d be able to say that. It’s like a switch has gone off in my head, and I’m just happy. I laugh all the time, I enjoy going to training every day, I want to be sociable and make an effort with friends, family, and teammates.
My depression has taught me so much about myself, what I can cope with, what I need help with. When to step back, when to keep going. It’s helped me learn how to deal with my life, I’m so excited for a Christmas break at home with my family, I know it’s time for a mental break from basketball ready for a big push into the Worlds. And I know that the past couple of years have helped me to recognise when I need those breaks.
I didn’t realise that my mental health issues were so visible, and writing my last post has opened up some amazing conversations. Those of you who have talked to me about it, thank you ☺️ knowing people care has been awesome.